the present moment

In my eating disorder, I was never fully present. I was anything but. In fact, I went to great lengths to avoid everything from people to emotions to reality to the experience of being in my own body. To simply be & live in the moment seemed terrifying, no matter how it was framed. The […]

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#badass

I was recently asked to write a letter to a current client at the treatment center I most recently discharged from. Below is the final product. To My Fellow Client, I want to let you know that you’re a badass. You’re a badass for doing hard things—for being in treatment, for shedding light in the […]

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goodbyes are difficult

Well, I’m back in Texas. I graduated from treatment on March 30, 2019 & returned home to Austin on April 1. The adjustment period has proved more difficult than I imagined. I miss California; I miss the mountains & the beach & the ocean. I was thoroughly spoiled for 3.5 months. And I miss the […]

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gratitude abounds

The following is an assignment from my treatment team: a gratitude letter to my eating disorder. To my eating disorder… We’ve had a good 17+ year run, and I don’t think I’ve thought much about it until now, but I’m surprisingly grateful for several aspects of our relationship. For starters, I’m grateful for the fact […]

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